Someone told me recently that they thought I have changed. This idea of change has been bouncing around in my brain ever since. Have I changed? I spoke to my husband about it. We do not think so. Today one of my favorite blogs, Our Life In Words, posted a quote by Albert Einstein: If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change. This one sentence sums up how I have changed, or not changed.
I am still the same person. I have had issues with public schools, despite being a teacher with a M.A. in Elementary Education, even while I was teaching. This is no surprise. I have talked about homeschooling for five years but I was never taken seriously, or maybe I never took my ability to homeschool seriously.
I changed the way I look at things in my life. If I don’t like it, I no longer have to accept it. I have heard it said that your 40’s are the greatest decade because you have finally figured out who you are and as a result, you finally get to enjoy yourself. My thirties were a time of building a family, constructing our home in which to house this family, and creating family ties to school, friends, neighbors and community. Now that I am close to 40, I have my family and I like our family. I love our home. I love my neighborhood and for the most part I love our neighbors. I am blessed. I have made one big change in my life - homeschooling my two daughters. This does not change who I am, but it changes how I look at education and learning and life in general.
As a result, things around me have changed. I went from having just one true friend who has known me and accepted who I am for the past fifteen years to having a new community of real friends. The women I have met over the past six months are creative, kind, caring, honest people. I choose to be their friend and at times I am honored that they chose to welcome me into their circle.
Through them I am finding new interests. I have learned to knit. I am learning what homeopathy is. I have tried kombucha and liked it! I have discovered a passion for farm fresh eggs, an interest in vermiculture and desire to garden.
Is this wrong? Is this a bad change? Some think it is. I don’t. My husband, who is my true best friend does not. He feels I have finally become the person I have wanted to be for so long. I feel like the little girl in the latest youtube video affirming my life. Like her, I like me, I like my house, I like my kids, I like my dogs, I like my family, I like my friends, I like my husband, I can do anything I set my mind to, I can be a homeschooling mom, I can learn new things, I can meet new people, I can discover new talents, I can strive to be better, I can change, or not.