I could not find any clothes that fit me today. I had what we have termed in this house, a “clothing crisis”. Living with two daughters, we have these often. Today was not about the actual fit of my clothes. Well, I should mention that some are a bit snug due to my summer of glorious food. But I do have some clothes that look fine on my body. The problem with the fit today was that my clothes no longer fit who I am as a person.
When I pulled out my fall clothes last year I was at a completely different stage of my life. I was reentering the workforce full time for the first time in 9 years as a preschool teacher. My daily clothes demanded flexibility. Thank goodness we were allowed to wear jeans because life with preschoolers is up and down, literally! But I often paired my jeans with something like this.
Very preppy. Very teacher-y. Very straight-laced and slightly boring. But I looked professional and well suited for a classroom of 20 three, four and five year olds.
However, now when I open my closet and find my french cuff Brooks Brothers shirts they don’t fit who I see myself today. I am still a teacher, only my students are now my daughters. I am still seeking to be respected, but for who I am as a person, not for my career. I still want to look put together when we venture out to our many classes, lessons, library trips and playdates but I would much rather look like this now.
Fortunately, I was able to purchase my teaching clothes on the meager salary that preschool teachers make. Now, I am not being paid for the hours and hours of planning, organizing, coordinating, facilitating, transporting and scheduling that I do now. I still want to do these things in style, but now my style is a bit more relaxed. Today I found some new clothes, not at Diesel, where I long to shop, but at Target where I found my favorite long sleeve tee shirts on sale for $7 each and two very cute short jersey shirts on clearance for $3.47 each! I splurged on two pairs of very cool tights and with my boots, I can mimic this look for a fraction of the price of designer. I went into the attic and rescued my "vintage" Henri Bendel skirts I got 10 years ago at a sample sale in New York City and had the great pleasure of shopping at P’s.
P’s is not a store or a catalog. Nope. I am a very lucky girl indeed. I have a mother who LOVES to shop and who has IMPECCABLE taste and fortunately is the same size as me! So when she purges her closet, my sister and I come running. We both carried out an armful of clothes from Banana Republic, Gap, and JCrew. Yes.....my mom can rock JCrew. Like I said...I am a very lucky girl. Now the only thing I really want but don’t yet have the courage to get to complete my new fall transformation is this. Even though I have wanted one since I was 12, I don’t think I will ever have the nerve.