I have never been, nor have I ever pretended to be an adventurist. Over the past few years I have moved towards a place of increased self-sufficiency, but I rely heavily on the grid. I like hot showers, to read by lamplight, to cook indoors and radiator heat. I like blogging and I like my eBooks. I can’t even pretend to have a “this will be fun!” attitude when it comes to a prolonged absence of power.
At the same time, I reflect on a talk I attended last year around this time given by Two Coyotes Wilderness School that focuses on strong neighborhoods and restoring the connections that some of us have lost with our neighbors. The talk was given just after the Halloween Blizzard of last year and someone shared they saw a sign on their neighbors lawn reading “Where is our Power?”
When I want to complain and I find myself getting snipish with Greg or the girls I ask myself, “where is my power?” Is it with United Illuminating or is it within myself? Can I be the Mom I want to be in a time of hardship? Yes, I can. But for me, it is a challenge.
I want to curl up on the couch wrapped in a comforter reading a book. I want to sleep in late. I want to stoke the fire and knit in my rocking chair. Instead I have to brew my coffee on the camp stove, heat up dinner on the fireplace cook top, and read by flashlight. Instead I force myself up and do my best to make a healthy nutritious meal for my family and my neighbors.
At least for now I have Greg at home to help but I am dreading the day that the trains are up and running and he goes back to work, to a well lit office, with a Keurig, wireless access and telephones. Yes, he is working, but still......don’t judge me for wanting the trains to stay down just a few more days.